|Isn’t it sweet how this is shaped like a heart. Alie is my heart!!|
I laid in bed last night, looking at my sweet daughter and I decided today that I want to share a little bit of my Alie with y’all.
Some of you know what a struggle it was to conceive her. This month, will make seven years ago that I went “under the knife” for the first time in my life. After a few attempts at getting pregnant and failing, we decided to see a doctor. What the doctor found was a five pound benign fibrous tumor on my uterus. That doctor wanted to take out everything. I was devastated After we left that appointment, I couldn’t stop shaking. I hadn’t even cried yet and felt like I was going to imploded. David says “let’s just get a second opinion”
I went to see a team of doctors, the best gyno team in Houston. The lead Dr told me “Don’t worry. We will take this out and you will have a baby” At one point during the description of what the procedure would entail, he said he would pop the tumor out like a coconut and proceeded to make a popping noise with his mouth. It’s funny how much it helped me feel better to hear that lil bit of comedy I still think of it all the time. Working together, in a 4 hour surgery, they removed the 5.1 pound tumor (which has been lovingly named “the ham” by my husband), while leaving my uterus intact. I had a lot of scar tissue and was told that it would be difficult to get pregnant, but definitely something we could achieve. The doctors helped me along the way with procedures, shots, and medications.
Over. Five. Years. Of shot, procedures, and medications. It was NOT easy! I went through so many emotions. The worst was the angry jealousy. Jealous over all the other moms. Angry over the moms that you heard about of the late night news that had no business being a mom. I had a lot of talks with God. Some good talks and some probably sounded a lot like a spoiled selfish teenager that wasn’t allowed to stay out after 11pm. Lots of “WHY”s! There were many times that I wanted to quit. Many times that I couldn’t take any more poking, prodding, injections, or the horrid side affects of the fertility drugs.
It wasn’t until my sister Nori bought me some Chinese fertility herbs, that I got pregnant. Two months into taking the herbs and after 5 years of trying everything just shy of IVF, I was pregnant. One week later, I miscarried. We were devastated. I continued on the Chinese fertility herbs not just to achieve pregnancy, but they also helped calm my painful periods and made me feel better. It really is all about hormonal balance!! Two months later, I was pregnant again.
This time I went on bed rest immediately! One doctor of the team, became my doctor throughout this pregnancy. She took wonderful care of Alice and I, calling her my ” precious cargo”. Thirty seven weeks later, that doctor performed a successful c-section and delivering our sweet Alice Marie into the world. She was a little early because the harden scar tissue on my uterus began to tear. That feels just as terrible as it sounds!! Alice was ready though, perfectly healthy and scoring a 9/9!! She did get jaundice in the hospital and they tried to snatch her away from us. After some tears and a lot of begging, they brought in the whole contraption with the UV lights into our hospital room. The nurses told me it was the first time they had done that. Alice was treated next to my bed and NOT in the nursery. After so many years of trying, nearly giving up and excepting that I would never have a child of my own, I could not stand to have her away from me for even a moment.
Over these two amazing years of motherhood, I have discovered that I was created by God to be a mom. It just feels like a natural part of my being. I feel complete now. There is nothing missing. Alice is my heart, my soul and my every breath. She is smart and fun. She is sweet and loving. She loves giving hugs and kisses. She is girly and precious. She loves pink, butterfly’s, ladybugs, ballerinas and anything that has to do with a “pin-says (princess)”. When she does something wrong, uhhh, if you could hear the way she says “I sah-weee” OH! It just melts my heart. Every moment, I am thankful to God for my sweet Alice Marie. I am thankful to my amazing husband, because he works so hard so that I can stay home and raise our daughter. There are countless cherished moments everyday with Alice. If David didn’t work as hard as he does, I would miss out on them.
There are so many things I could share with y’all about my sweet daughter and this incredibly wonderful life I live. I thought I would share my favorite pictures of Alice. There are more pictures in my About Me, too. Thanks for following me. Thank you for your sweet comments and encouragement. I love all my new blog friends as much as I love making more.
|Alice Marie just minutes after she was born.|
|Sweet Alie Marie 6/4/2008|
|Alie and her daddy|
|Alie and her mama|
|Alice in her going home outfit|
|The day we brought Alie home|
|Alie meeting her big sister Marli (my sweet step-daughter)|
|My silly Alice|
|What a cutie huh?|
|I’m all clean|
|My lil ladybug|
|Alie’s 1st Christmas|
|Happy trick-or-treaters! My dad, Alie, Me, David and Angie|
|Alie’s silly face|
|The BBQ trek!!|
|Proud Daddy with his girls|
|Happy Alie Marie|
|Alie’s 1st Birthday|
|Alie in her Halloween PJ’s|
|Alie in the Halloween Tutu I made her|
|Alie’s 2nd Christmas|
|Cute Alie Antlers|
|The most beautiful girl in the world|
|Alie riding in her carseat|
|New Years day at the park|
|Silly Photo Booth Pic|
|Unpacking our apt and this is what Alie put on!!|
|Easter Egg Hunting|
|Alie with her cousins Angie and April in Houston|
|Alie with Grandpa and Grandma (my side) Daddy in the background|
|Alie in her Texans gear at the AZ vs. TX game in AZ. We may live in AZ but we are still TEXANS!!|
|My sweety Alie Marie!!|